So…it’s been a little while since I’ve had an up to date post, but….now I’ve moved hotels and have internet…this hotel is even more out of the way than the last one, but it’s a little nicer – bigger room, internet, more tv channels, better toast at breakfast…and way better jelly for said toast, don’t even get me started. Oh, and I’m finally getting to use the slingbox (let’s me watch tv from back in GA)…you may not think it’s a big deal, but I paid a lot to get it installed, and now I’m just happy to use it finally.
Anyways, to the point of this post…I was riding back from London this past Sunday after another cool weekend in London – stayed with March, and for those of you who don’t know him…he’s awesome, and a vicar (i.e. a priest in the Church of England…I know him though all you peps back in Chi-town). It works out really nice know people all over, it definitely helps getting around. We (Veebs, Reon, and I) stayed with him weekend before last…so the church he works at…the church that started alpha….freakin awesome!!! (oh before I forget, Reon is the best tour guide ever, mad props to my spikey-haired Brittish-ago-ama friend…combo of, oh nm, I’m not going to explain it to you…but seriously, thanks Reon.) So this church…HTB – Holy Trinity Brompton, where, yes, Tim Hughes lead worship. What can I say…you are all jealous and you know it. There I said it.
So it was (what is that like the 5th “so” I’ve used??...oh, speaking of annoying habbits…thanks a lot P for telling me about Nick’s habit of calling things “guy” instead of something like “one”; as in “look at this guy,” or “what do you think about that guy” …I can’t stop doing it…ugh, it’s pretty annoying, but I remember you when I do it and laugh) so I was coming back from my second weekend in London, riding on the train, reading a book – I’m not telling you which book b/c it’s a book that I’ve bought more than one copy for some lucky person back home…so I can’t tell you what it is. Anyway, I was reading this book, and suddenly…it happened…I had a moment. Have you ever had “a moment”…it’s tough to explain, and I haven’t had many, in fact I could probably count them on my hand, but it’s one of those perfect moments where, even if it’s only for a second, life is perfect. It’s as if God Himself is sitting right next to you and everything is right with the world. In these moments, anything is possible…and your wildest dreams and wishes could come true. It was like I was a little kid again just lying in the grass with my dog on a summer’s evening, where I had no responsibilities and absolutely nothing to do…but I could do anything.
Dunno why, but these moments happen most often when I’m on a trip somewhere…traveling at night, like when you were young and would go on long overnight bus rides for a field trip or something. All you friends were around you, but you were the only one awake and could just sit there and stare out the window and dream…maybe I’m the only one that did this…I think that I loved trips so much b/c you could just roll the window down and hear nothing but the wind go by…and imagine yourself going anywhere…being anyone…doing anything. I guess this is why I love just going for drives too…
I still dream…
Wondering, waiting, creating…
Creating worlds of possibilities…
Of what it means to be me…
Of what could be…and of what is
I still dream…
Of flying high
With the wind in my face
And the sun on my skin
And every step…a new chance to begin
But I always come back to this place
This place of wondering and questioning…
Wondering why you put these dreams in my head
Questioning what good are dreams in the face of the world outside
In the face of “reality”
In the face of…me.
And yet…
And yet, a small voice.
A whisper…whispers
What if…
What if “reality” isn’t…
What if dreams can come true
What if my dreams are your dreams
And what if the world can change
And what if anything is possible…
Oh, I still dream…
I dream of what’s next
Of what God has yet to teach me and of what I have yet to learn
I dream of you…
And of what we’ll someday do, and where we’ll someday go
And of how much I have left to grow.
And I beg God for more patience and grace.
He just smiles…
I still dream…
And nothing can take that from me.
I thank God for these moments…they’re usually gone as soon as they come, but they did come. And I pray that you have a “moment” today…even if only for a moment.