Wonder
hmm...its a great night for a walk.
...ever wonder why. why God has chosen to have things go the way they've gone. why do we want to change the things that we cannot change...or the people we cannot change? who are we to know what is best for us? yet we question God as to "WHY?" and demand a knowledge too great for us. maybe someday I'll truly realize what I already know - that God's timing is not my own, and that whether He comes too fast or too slow for my tastes that, at the end of the day, He knows best.
what an awful student God must take me for, were He to think on me with a mortal heart (fortunately for me, He does not). I find it interesting, if not completely frustrating trying to figure out why God chooses to respond one time, and not another - or does he always respond and I just miss the forest for the trees....how arbitrary God may seem in the moment, but then in hindsight...20/20, everytime. why do I question His voice time and again - He has never failed or forsaken me...never. why do I question? I am as Gomer and God, Hosea...blocking my way, stripping me bare, back to what He created me to be before I clothed myself in the rags of unrighteousness. where I have built for myself a temple of self with pride as its foundation...He is tearing it down and leading me to the wilderness, where I will again learn to depend on ONLY Him....
A good frined and teacher once told me this and I have found it to be true: that "the Jews were better Egyptians than the Egyptians" - once you know what that means, then you'll know where I'm coming from and you'll know why we have to go through some of the things we go through before we get to where God wants us to be.
...ever wonder why. why God has chosen to have things go the way they've gone. why do we want to change the things that we cannot change...or the people we cannot change? who are we to know what is best for us? yet we question God as to "WHY?" and demand a knowledge too great for us. maybe someday I'll truly realize what I already know - that God's timing is not my own, and that whether He comes too fast or too slow for my tastes that, at the end of the day, He knows best.
what an awful student God must take me for, were He to think on me with a mortal heart (fortunately for me, He does not). I find it interesting, if not completely frustrating trying to figure out why God chooses to respond one time, and not another - or does he always respond and I just miss the forest for the trees....how arbitrary God may seem in the moment, but then in hindsight...20/20, everytime. why do I question His voice time and again - He has never failed or forsaken me...never. why do I question? I am as Gomer and God, Hosea...blocking my way, stripping me bare, back to what He created me to be before I clothed myself in the rags of unrighteousness. where I have built for myself a temple of self with pride as its foundation...He is tearing it down and leading me to the wilderness, where I will again learn to depend on ONLY Him....
A good frined and teacher once told me this and I have found it to be true: that "the Jews were better Egyptians than the Egyptians" - once you know what that means, then you'll know where I'm coming from and you'll know why we have to go through some of the things we go through before we get to where God wants us to be.
posted by ramblinwreck at 7:37 PM
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It says in writing that you are a Gomer. Period.
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